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Post 6

It has been 13 days without a drop of alcohol. It is not getting any easier to stay away though, every time I need to get gas or go buy something at the store the hellish liquid calls for me. Today I have to go pick up some toilet paper because I was running low. When I got to the store I picked up some toilet paper and on the way to the checkout, I saw some beer on sale. I knew it was a bad idea but I had been drinking for years and been fine, what would be wrong with just one 6 pack? Returning home I decided to crack open a cold one and put the other 5 in the fridge, I was not going to have more that one that day. After that, I started watching the game but my team was losing so I thought one more beer couldn’t hurt, in the past I could put back 10 in a row no trouble. It got hard to remember what happened after the second one because I didn’t stop at 2. I finished all 6 of the beers and then decided to go get more, on my way to the store I fell down the stairs and hit my head. I...
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Post 5

I saw the speech by Lochte, it was very inspirational. For the last week, I have not been drinking. After the storm, I didn’t have enough money to buy any alcohol and since then I have felt better sober. When listening to Lochte’s speech, I realized that I had been using alcohol to cover up my pain. He said, “Even though I am no longer able to swim like I used to, I am still able to do great things. I might no longer be as famous but I’m still able to do great things. I go around America inspiring people and talking about my life. I get to see a large crowd of people that want to hear what I have to say. It was important for me to realize that it is ok to change as a person. Even though I was once a famous Olympic athlete, I can still be something great. Like an inspiration to all of you here today.” That really stood out to me because I realized that I need to do something with my life. For many years I have done nothing but work, exercise, and drink. I know now that I need to start...
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After the Storm

I woke up after the storm to the sound of murmuring as people gathered their things and started leaving the basement. I immediately want to go back to my room and see if all of my stuff is ok but I feel too hungover to get up the stairs. After waiting a while and letting everyone else leave first I slowly make my climb up the stairs to try to get to my room. When I get there everything is a mess. The couch is soaking wet, all of my tables were knocked over and everything on them had broken. My carpet had gotten wet and walking through my own apartment felt like a swamp. I felt terrible so I decided to get some good medicine, for me that was whiskey. Upon opening my fridge I saw that all of my beer had moved around and shattered knowing I had to get some alcohol or I would feel sick I checked my backup mini fridge in my bedroom and saw my bed had gotten soaked and was unusable. The sheets had come off and the mattress was ruined. I opened my mini fridge just to find it empty,...
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The Storm

I don’t exactly remember where I was at the start of the storm. I would bet I was taking a nap or getting a drink from the fridge but I woke up on the floor to what sounded like giant bricks hitting the ceiling. I started having a panic attack, this reminded me all too well of the sound of bombshells back in the war. Knowing I had to do something I wanted to make my way to the basement but my legs wouldn’t move. I wasn’t sure if it was fear of a hangover at the time but looking back it was probably a mix of both. After a piece of ice the size of a small housecat crashes through my window, I felt a rush of freezing cold air and rain. The shock of cold forced me up and to my door. I ran through the hallways along with the other occupants of Pointe Place toward the staircase. In there it is safer due to the lack of windows. I headed down the stairs trying to get to the basement. There it was damp and cold but there were lots of people and no windows. I sat down far away from everyon...
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Mr. Evans is still dead

Mr. Evans is still dead. People die sure and a lot of people think you get used to it. They think, “If you have seen dozens of your friends die what does some old man you barely know matter?” I can feel them thinking it. The thing is you never really get used to death, on moment somebody is in your life the next day they aren't. You never get to tell them anything new, they never get to learn about new developments in your life and you never get to hear about theirs. When I was in the military I saw my brothers killed in batter, in terrible terrible ways. This felt different, I didn’t see him die. Just out of nowhere he went from alive to dead without me being able to do anything. I have been in a bad mood since I found out he died however many days ago. I guess I may have been in a bad mood before then too, I can’t remember. After already being in a bad mood today it was Coco that decided to pester me. She came up to me as I was walking into the building from my car (after a sess...
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R.I.P Mr. Evans

The day started like any other, with hitting the snooze button on my alarm and getting another 5 minutes of sleep. Then another 5, and another 5 until I had lost 35 minutes to the alarm. After getting out of bed I went to the kitchen to make coffee only to soon realize I had forgotten to do the dishes the night before and didn’t have a clean coffee mug. I could just use a water cup even if it got stained who would care? After my morning coffee, I got dressed to go to the gym. The gym is nice, you can you there to do your thing. There is no losing at the gym, you can’t get fired at the gym, as long as you show up and lift some weights you can have at least one success for the day. I go to the gym every day because it is the only way to guarantee I will get something accomplished before the day ends. On my way back from the gym I  saw George and Coco standing outside of the parking deck each with grim expressions on their faces. I decided to pull over to see what was wrong. I don...
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